Destiney

Because of an accident my cousin, she, got a girl and then a boy, a happy family.

Because of an accident I got a nightmare and will be under its shadow and shame permanately. 

My destiney, what an irony! God, do you see the pain, torture and scars deeply carved in my heart? Please have your mercy upon me. I suffer. I drop tears. I fear. I do hope you say, 'my shepherds, the sunrise is coming; the nightmare will end; wipe your tears; no more pain and sorrowness!' All the yellow scars burried in the heart could set free and a green bird or a white dove will fly from the scars.

Names

炎斈

炎壇

炎墻

Going big.

All the bad things ended in the last year, including I didn't get the national scholarship finally.

However, as a rookie who wanna study the phd abroad I did move ahead and achieved something a little.

My dreams for this year are 1) get good grades on TOFEL and GRE tests and 2) get the admissions of phd programs from  the top universities.

This year is going big. May gods bless me.

蹲苦窯人生

隨著年紀漸增，身旁的朋友大多經濟穩定成為中產階級，也開始在公司有點資歷，不像菜鳥時，假都不敢請。正因為如此，忽然一票人像集體約好一樣，都跑去國外過耶誕節，是一定要這麼浪漫嗎？東京、法國、英國、泰國、越南......。我看他們會一路爽到跨年完～

人蔘呀～我今天的聖誕節註定困在冷冷的新竹，釘在書桌前了！然後，FB傳來兩年前的回憶通知，那時在Gold coast當救生員，曬得黑不拉雞的，耶誕節那天上班，但因為我不是基督徒，所以耶誕節其實還蠻無感的，而快樂的是在嚴熱的那天下班後，一個人嗑掉一盒冰淇淋！

Go big or go home!？ 以退為進，蹲苦窯的人生何時結束呢？拜託老天看在我這半年很認真的份上，許我個璀燦的未來三年吧！再半年，讓我從一個小孬孬/肉腳，褪變成羽翼漸豐的鷹鳥！

The power of procrastination

The power of procrastination is sonetimes unbelievable! I was a freshman  in 2000 and had a textbook for building up the quantity of vocabulary. The book should be finished reading when I was a freshman; however, it takes me fifteen years to finish it. The book has travelled with me to many cities and Australia; I was trying to seize time to memorize the vocabulary inside, but I just made some progress. Finally, I finished reading it today. It is like an overlasting soap opera that should be terminated for its lack of excitements and surprises. A book has been read for fifteen years! Procrastination is the thief of time. I made so much of me be stolen. And finally I got the lesson-- what I tried to avoid from, it will come back to hunt me again.

Myth of masculinity

It's hard to distinguish the nuance between a gay on jackd and a dog in heat.

My suggestion is... spare your muscle to save your brain if you cannot have both of them. Muscle doesn't talk, nor does your cock. If they do, they are speaking the drama of acting masculinity; however under is not amour, but a sweet girl with inferiority complex.

Turtle speed

Fingers slide on my smartphone viewing friends on Facebook who are studying or gonna study abroad for PhD. It doesn't help to achieve my dream, but envy them. That's they study abroad, not me. I'm the same grounded here going nowhere.

Shout down your facebook and other apps!!! Awake!!!