Going big.

All the bad things ended in the last year, including I didn't get the national scholarship finally.

However, as a rookie who wanna study the phd abroad I did move ahead and achieved something a little.

My dreams for this year are 1) get good grades on TOFEL and GRE tests and 2) get the admissions of phd programs from  the top universities.

This year is going big. May gods bless me.

蹲苦窯人生

隨著年紀漸增，身旁的朋友大多經濟穩定成為中產階級，也開始在公司有點資歷，不像菜鳥時，假都不敢請。正因為如此，忽然一票人像集體約好一樣，都跑去國外過耶誕節，是一定要這麼浪漫嗎？東京、法國、英國、泰國、越南......。我看他們會一路爽到跨年完～

人蔘呀～我今天的聖誕節註定困在冷冷的新竹，釘在書桌前了！然後，FB傳來兩年前的回憶通知，那時在Gold coast當救生員，曬得黑不拉雞的，耶誕節那天上班，但因為我不是基督徒，所以耶誕節其實還蠻無感的，而快樂的是在嚴熱的那天下班後，一個人嗑掉一盒冰淇淋！

Go big or go home!？ 以退為進，蹲苦窯的人生何時結束呢？拜託老天看在我這半年很認真的份上，許我個璀燦的未來三年吧！再半年，讓我從一個小孬孬/肉腳，褪變成羽翼漸豐的鷹鳥！

The power of procrastination

The power of procrastination is sonetimes unbelievable! I was a freshman  in 2000 and had a textbook for building up the quantity of vocabulary. The book should be finished reading when I was a freshman; however, it takes me fifteen years to finish it. The book has travelled with me to many cities and Australia; I was trying to seize time to memorize the vocabulary inside, but I just made some progress. Finally, I finished reading it today. It is like an overlasting soap opera that should be terminated for its lack of excitements and surprises. A book has been read for fifteen years! Procrastination is the thief of time. I made so much of me be stolen. And finally I got the lesson-- what I tried to avoid from, it will come back to hunt me again.

Myth of masculinity

It's hard to distinguish the nuance between a gay on jackd and a dog in heat.

My suggestion is... spare your muscle to save your brain if you cannot have both of them. Muscle doesn't talk, nor does your cock. If they do, they are speaking the drama of acting masculinity; however under is not amour, but a sweet girl with inferiority complex.

Turtle speed

Fingers slide on my smartphone viewing friends on Facebook who are studying or gonna study abroad for PhD. It doesn't help to achieve my dream, but envy them. That's they study abroad, not me. I'm the same grounded here going nowhere.

Shout down your facebook and other apps!!! Awake!!!

Academia

Is it possible for me to go back to the academic parthenon agagin?

A rusty mind needs polishing.

LIST

Author: Tsui-Ling

怎麼會有這麼多人大言不慚，
覺得自己都是會思考？
結果所謂的侃侃而談，就只是針砭時弊，主持社會正義，為弱勢族群發聲，
這種等級只是過去那些自稱有風骨、有社會關懷的假公共知識份子的作為，
真正有思想的書也沒念過幾本，離思考根本還遠得很，
要談社會正義，請問有先駁倒Hayek反對社會正義的論證了嗎？
為弱勢族群發聲，請問有先駁倒Oakeshott詮釋社會主流價值意見的論證了嗎？
要當公知，請問有先駁倒Leavis反對學術為政治與社會目的而服務的論證了嗎？
沒有，通通視而不見，或是根本沒聽過的井底之蛙，
然後有人告入訴我們這些人懂得思考，
連應該納入思考的材料都沒聽過是要思考甚麼東西啊XDD

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想起去年夏天讀Oakeshott的On Human Conduct一書，
論證通通看不懂，只抓得到大概的立場。
處理過兩個文化的論戰後，
終於可以體會為什麼Oakeshott當年能夠大筆一揮，
就說所有研究政治的社學科學如political science都是pseudo-science，
要理解政治就必須回到政治思想史及其哲學論證中，
因此戰後所有政治科學系所都可以廢除。
我不知道有生之年有沒有機會看到這麼有魄力的大學校長，
把整個社會科學院拔掉！

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想起林玉体之流就是當年只讀過Popper的書，
但是卻對同時期的Hayek、Oakeshott毫無涉獵，
Man is what he reads，
其程度可想而知。

In response, Voegelin wrote that studying Popper's views was a waste of precious time, and "an annoyance". Specifically about "The Open Society and Its Enemies" and Popper's understanding of Plato's "The Republic", after giving some examples, Voegelin wrote:
"Popper is philosophically so uncultured, so fully a primitive ideological brawler, that he is not able even approximately to reproduce correctly the contents of one page of Plato. Reading is of no use to him; he is too lacking in knowledge to understand what the author says."
可惜的是，
Voegelin的作品太過困難，
在Rawls簡單好懂的潮流下，
以及繼Dewey之後唯一一位勉強放得上檯面的哲學家、民族情緒作用下，
就這樣讓二戰時流亡移民到的美國Voegelin逐漸被淡忘，
不知道究竟何時才有機會一覽Order and History套書，
發問、質疑、搞破壞很簡單，
重建秩序就是另一回事了。