天菜

天菜果真是天菜，在Jack'd上常follow的天菜，今天在游泳池見到本人，10萬伏特的電力差點電爆我，還好本人練就ㄧ身take it for granted的功力，表面上的與內心防衛機轉上的；還好天菜沒有看我一眼，不然可能真的馬上ko我！

Bigot

The scary thing is that reading is intellectually funnier than talking to you; running alone is more enjoyable 'cause you cannot achieve my speed. What a cynical bogot I am. And you can only make yourslef charming by being an antagolist.

Hibernation

1. The new tenant on the ground floor is a good-looking guy; I meant he's not really handsome, but straight acting (surely, he is straight), tall and tight build. That's definitely my type. Though the ex-tenant was absolutely a handsome dude, but he's also bad tempered.

2. What will be my future? Well...being a teacher in a junior high school is not my first goal in my life; it's just a temporary position and status for me. I wanna carry on my further study, but it won't be in Taiwan. But I have no money to study abroad. How to tackle this problem? Time after time, I'm getting old and no time for me to waste. 

Head back to Taiwan from Seoul

Finally it's a period of my Seoul trip. I do miss Taiwan; it's really too cold and dry for me to visit Seoul in the winter. The only thing I gotta to come here in winter is for skiing.

Hmm the infrastructure in Seoul is pretty refined. I think only Japan is better than Seoul in the great Asian area. 

First Day in Seoul

I was blocked in the Incheon Int'l Airport, extremely fatigue and sleepy. The reason why I am still in the airport is the busy immigration and the temporarily close bank exchange service; anyway, I missed the last train to Seoul Station. Consequently, I have to wait for the subway service at 5.23am. Yeah, I am a fucking poor budget traveller and wanna save some money; the fare of night cab to the city is too expensive for a solo tourist. The worse is that all my trip schedule probably needs rearranging 'cause I am so tired now and just wanna get to the hostel I booked in Itaewon for a sleep Orz. My cough is not compeletly recovered and worried that it's gonna be worse for the insufficient rest. Hmm...the gentle morning comes earlier, please. QQ

murmur about recent life

1. Time flies and I think I should write something. I just knew it's not easy to keep writing after graduating from school and starting working.

2. I am thirty-two years and turning to be thirty-three two days later. The worst part is that most my freinds listed on facebook have gotten married and have cute babies; defintely it can be called the baby boom on facebook. And I just realize that I am going to walk on another way different from my sttraight freinds. And being a gay in the closet will be just an unspeakable but obvious secret for me one day; however, I insist that the timing and decision of coming out should be under my control. Anyway, I just thought I've passed the anxiety of entering the threshold of thirties- it does bothers me lots while I was in twenty-eight and twenty-nine - but how come it is like a nightmare coming back and entangleng me again?

3. When being a lifeguard in Wet 'n' Wild, I found out that some of my body hair became brown. I just thought that's because the food I had made my body changed a little; however, after I came back to Taiwan and my hair grows longer; then I just knew it's aging!!! kind of sacry!!! Actually it's not brown or golden, but it turns out to be gray; then it looks like brown under the sunshine.

4. Go big or go home. It's a question about the strategies. And it seems that I screwed up a lot of things. I hate myself for being so stupid.

diaspora

Dispora is a cultural jargon originally used to describe the the Jewish exodus from the Europe mainly to the U.S. due to the Nazi persecution during World War II; however, dispora probably is also one sort of gays' destiny - leaving their family wherever living in another domestic city or the alien one - for getting rid of the pressure of the expected marriage. Hmm...last week I visited one of my scool siblings who just came back from Luxembourg; it's been about three years that I didn't see her. And this time she came back with her husband and her newborn baby, so I think it's a good timming to visit them. During our catch-up, her sister showed up for palying with Morgen, that cute baby. So this is first time I saw her sister, vice verse. Hmm...I guess we are almost the same age. She's a doctor, clever though not stunningly beautiful in my subjective judgement. Yeah! I was thinking about the beautiful-heterosexual romance for a short moment. And even probably we have the backgraound gap need overcoming; yep, she comes from a wealthy family, but it's not my genesis; I have nothing but myself.... Anyway, it's uncessary for me to worry about that because I am queer. It bothers me just beccause my friend she'd like to do matchmaking.... Well, it just wasted our time! I think most of gays if they don't come out, they onece have had some clandestine affair; it's unspeakable especially to our family. Hmm...If I keep it my own secert, it's only my burden, and no harsh time or parental tension would be undergone! That makes gay diaspora....  (Sigh~)