everytime when i read you, i feel so touched.
it seems that you reveal me something but also you hide something from me.
that's okie. i will try to understand you.
the destiny i dare not believe. if one's life is determined by destiney, then what's the pleasure of being? religion is always a problem. it comforts us but it's also the source of oppression 'cause it asks us to believe instead of juding of criticizing.
Freud tells us that the existence of structure of personalities; i.e. psyche is like the body which can be shaped, built, and strengthen. then if you feel weak, how should you deal with it? to shape your psyche or to gain power from the outside?
i dont know how to make theses two systems of belief or thinking together.... mn...religion is sweet sugar, but i aint sure if it's really good. but maybe a little sugar is okie...XD after all, i'm not a "protestant" or an "amish".
what i can do is keep some distant with them. let myself being attracted to them but also deny them at the same time.
