murmur about recent life

1. Time flies and I think I should write something. I just knew it's not easy to keep writing after graduating from school and starting working.

2. I am thirty-two years and turning to be thirty-three two days later. The worst part is that most my freinds listed on facebook have gotten married and have cute babies; defintely it can be called the baby boom on facebook. And I just realize that I am going to walk on another way different from my sttraight freinds. And being a gay in the closet will be just an unspeakable but obvious secret for me one day; however, I insist that the timing and decision of coming out should be under my control. Anyway, I just thought I've passed the anxiety of entering the threshold of thirties- it does bothers me lots while I was in twenty-eight and twenty-nine - but how come it is like a nightmare coming back and entangleng me again?

3. When being a lifeguard in Wet 'n' Wild, I found out that some of my body hair became brown. I just thought that's because the food I had made my body changed a little; however, after I came back to Taiwan and my hair grows longer; then I just knew it's aging!!! kind of sacry!!! Actually it's not brown or golden, but it turns out to be gray; then it looks like brown under the sunshine.

4. Go big or go home. It's a question about the strategies. And it seems that I screwed up a lot of things. I hate myself for being so stupid.