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It's been two and half years that I stay single. Years go by, the same i am, still alone. With busy schoolwork and friends' accompanying, two and half years are not too difficult to pass honestly.

Being the same, I dunno if it's good or not. At least, at the age of 28 it's a little bit hard to keep the waist in 28 inches and the crow's feet emerge while smiling. About the unvoidable aging and metabolism slowdown, it seems that staying the same is not too bad. (I just mean the appearance.)

Different period and location contains its aesthetics; that's some generation shares their perfect ideas of dressing, hairstyle, and manners, etc in common. And I dunno how to locate my position. Where is my age group? Most of them are blue-collar workers in business suit worn out by work and their harsh supervisors. Mn...Even the stars you're fond of reveal the secret of your age. Lady gaga becomes the most populor idol for gays in twenties and Britney Spears has passed her prime; whos knows if Madonna is going to be burried in 5 ot 10 years later.

I really dunno where to find my age group. They seems to vanish in the world one day after I finish the military servive and come back to the society. They're just gone soundlessly and smell-lessly. Buddy, then how could I find the guy who speaks the same language with me? Surely it's not just about the question of age but more complicated. Little by little, I start to love the one-person sports, like jogging, swimming and cycling. Anytime if I want, I just put on my shoes and I can set off my persoanl journey.



The truth is that most of our life time is alone, but we are rarely willing to face this. Perhaps a lover could solve this problem provisionally, but in the long way of life we still have to laern how to handle with the fear of loneliness.